Thank you Joe

You did it just for the sake of Thanksgiving didn't you? lol.... Joe what I first wonder is, have you been wanting to trap me as your Helen Keller intentionally or have you been mad that I've never been able to make sense of anything? I really hate to further get involved in some dramas because some dramas look as though it will always only be "when violence begets violence." I just hate being in that. I've never been one to be at anyone's mercy, but there are times that I become an outnumbered victim and it can feel like such a death threat to be outnumbered and ganged up on. You saved me from feeling so ganged up on and outnumbered and I'm glad you grabbed me in this instance. I wouldn't be surprised if Erin fought for you or your respect after making an Amanda Knox monster out of her. It is my long standing truth though. I know she has a higher education and probably a higher salary but I can't stand the control she wants, the shots she wants to call, or the judge she wants to be. I know I don't trust her. I was in a very judged and isolated place when I was in college and Shawn Shaffer appeared to be dating her. Whether that was the truth or I was being ridiculously interrogated by some far fetched cop with another person they wanted me to be murderously subjected to, she is one I was being forced to be threatened over. Like I won't always care what other people say, I know Erin has a strength to not care what other people say either. It looks like Amanda is actually luckier than I right now, but she has had to live through a lot of judgment, exploitation, and turmoil, and I honestly know that more than any of the rest than what her story is. I get brief glances of news sometimes, but I'm mostly an ignorant person who got a glimpse enough of the story and don't know the outcome of how her freedom came about and what her innocence is. I never gave whatever story it was a chance. When it comes to being in control and giving people chances, it seems I have been a very unfortunate one with the way I can never win in a person's right to want to call the shots with me like it is for them to give or not give a chance. Knowing this, I still make my choices of who I will and won't give a chance to. It's really painful to know that I'm being murdered to be in submission and at mercy sometimes. It is so hurtful to me. I appreciate you wanting to support me in wanting to make Erin feel like the mean monster she was to me...… While you can give me some relief, I believe you are still not what I'm looking for. You're a married man whose already gone on with your life. Because of another cheat you had with my sister and another betraying occasion where I remember feeling violently scolded but not knowing what hit me, I just never thought much of you after that. I'm probably not what your looking for either but I think you got something you wanted and I'm not really mad about it right now. I'm still looking for a man I can have all to my own and he can have me all to his own. Happy Thanksgiving Joe!